3 down, 1 to go! And im not exactly happy about this. seriously, it's gonna be the worst year ever! im prepared to get really really cui results. and just like what i told my og peeps, i don't know whether i'll be happy if i scrape through my papers or if i fail them and get to retake them and hope for better grades. but that would mean more money and another year at school. whatever it is, it's not in my hands anymore. i just gotta commit the papers into His hands and concentrate on the one last paper. :(
had the most terrible cramps of all in the afternoon, yesterday.. it's the first time i had to take a double dosage of the painkillers. and seriously, lying down did not help at all. i totally just rolled into a ball and positioned myself at the corner of my bed, whining and crying. and my mum was so shocked! in the end she made me some hot tea. i think it was boiling hot and i actually scalded my tongue but who cares! it made me feel alot better. i drank the whole cup.. and immediately, went to the bathroom and puked whatever that was in my tummy. =/ fortunately the pills took effect after sometime (though i believe part of it has already been flushed away!), and i went to sleep...... wahh but come to think of it, if cramps were already this bad.. how will giving birth be like? *ouuuccchh* maybe it's a better idea for guys to take up the responsibility of giving birth. i can go NS! bleah.
and after talking to wiggly, pei, dd, dan and a few others.. i realised.. IM PERFECTLY NORMAL! :D gee how nice! (: and according to dan, i should be FURIOUS. but i wasnt. i was sad. damn!! i should have been furious!! i shall be furious now now NOW!! i shall give him the murderous stare from now on! >.< ...so im actually just a stupid blockhead with no self-confidence =/ and and and i hereby declare RV ppl are the most normalest of all! haha. i never fail to feel comfortable talking to them. yayy (:
and and and i just found out something else. no liane, you are NOT gonna keep turning back, feeling nostalgic and thinking bout the good ol' days. you've got to move on. move ahead. move FORWARD. stop turning back!! you had the guts to reject. so you should have the guts to put things down and move on!! grrrr.. im totally irritated with myself sometimes..
oh yea, which reminds me, one of the days last week.. guess it was before my marketing paper (yucks), 傻蛋 actually made a call to 933 during cq's yeayeayea.. haha it was hilarious.. i shall not mention what he called me on air.. i will NEVER EVER respond to that kinda name.. it's SO NOT ME! >.< color="#993399">(: (: (: okay before i start thinking bout my papers again. eh but urgghhhhhhh =/
and a few days ago, i bawled till i thought i was gonna get an asthma attack. till i woke up with super swollen eyes which only returned to their normal size (small enough alr) the next day.. i cannot say i was totally wronged by some ppl. yet, i believe the bulk of the problem lies with them. cos they were not even nearby but they ASSUMED that they heard and understood everything. im not sure how im gonna settle this.. i've been told by those i talked to, to give in.. but why is it always me? and putting the gender issue aside, i just hope they actually reflected/will reflect bout things and not insist that they are right. and seriously, to learn how not to judge people with no concrete evidence.. but anyway, thank you GH for talking to me! (:
yea im gonna study my hrm now.. it's interesting! it's fun! it's enjoyable! =s
